My heart completely sank. Embarrassment and fear of ridicule permeated my mind. It was just a spelling mistake; but I was supposed to KNOW better. I was an English teacher for many years! Teaching writing was my favorite focus! Teaching my students the importance of rereading, editing, etc…was an intricate part of what I taught! This isn’t supposed to happen!
My husband was taken aback by my reaction. He tried to calm me by saying, “Honey, this isn’t some Pulitzer Prize piece up for judging. Relax.”
My dear friend consoled, “I know you’re upset with yourself, but you need to be willing to receive grace as well as give it.”
My friend whose company name I mis-spelled emailed me and expressed, “No worries!” And she ended it with a smily face.
But I couldn’t shake my frustration, and I couldn’t stop worrying about it. And then it hit me, and I had to face it. Deep down, at the heart of my fears was the question, Will they still like me even though I broke the most basic rule of marketing—spell the company’s name correctly!
“Will they still like me?” Wow–Really? It sounds like I’m in high school again!
At first I was mad at myself. I thought, There I go again—trying to deposit my worth in my self-imposed “People’s Bank,” where the exorbitant fees cost me my joy and peace, and the ever fluctuating interest rates place me at risk for losing the knowledge of who I am in Christ.
But then, my beautiful Savior opened my eyes to truly see what I was doing TO MYSELF. I guess you could say it was a gentle “frying pan moment.” As I sat gliding on our back porch swing listening to my children play, the words from Ephesian 1:3-9 gently filled my heart:
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord and Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will–to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding. And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment–to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ.”
These verses lovingly whispered that as a child of Christ, I am loved, redeemed, forgiven, adopted, and chosen.
Enveloped in His grace…
These verses reminded me that our Heavenly Father does not expect us to be perfect, only His Son did that.
Deep sigh of relief…
What He does expect is that we BELIEVE that we are loved, redeemed, forgiven, adopted, and chosen.
BELIEVING… and transferring my worth from the “People’s Bank” to my Heavenly Father…
Care to join me?
I am so thankful for you. Thank you for reminding me of my worth.